Misery Loves My Company

by Shadowdances

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released December 28, 2008

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Track Name: I Crawl
I CRAWL

Scratching to the surface of the mess
That I am in today
I’m so afraid there is no way
That I could step onto and go away
So many times I drowned in lies
So many times been pushing you away
Running never looking back
I don’t know why I never wanted you to stay

But I’m not coming back
Not today
I’m not going back
I better stay away

I saw this truth in front of me
But somehow turned and looked the other way
It made me think I’m so afraid
Afraid of everything I have to say

And I’m not coming back
Not today
I’m not going back
I better stay away

Searching for a reason I slipped
And then I lost my fate
I saw this truth in front of me
But somehow turned and looked the other way

So many times I drowned in lies
So many times been pushing you away
Running never looking back
I don’t know why I never wanted you to stay

But I’m not coming back
Not today
I’m not going back
I better stay away
Track Name: The Girl
THE GIRL

She’s the girl everyone adores
She wears those pretty things that make the heads turn
But she’d go down the streets and sit alone at dawn
‘Cause she knows no one sees
She’s not made of stone

And she cries ‘cause she’s alone
No one looks into her soul
No one wants to see her heart
She doesn’t need for this to go on
She doesn’t want to fall apart
She’s surprised she made it this far

Last time he saw her walking out the door
He thought oh well he doesn’t need her anymore

‘Cause everyone is on to her
So he envies that she’s adored
But this is not what she wants
It’s is not what she wants

This is not what she lives for
It’s not what she gives for
It’s not what she’d love for
It’s not what she’d die for

And she left without a word
And she went into the storm
From now on she’s on her own
No one looked into her heart
She didn’t want to fall apart
She just wanted to be loved
She’s surprised she made it this far
Track Name: Autumn Haze
AUTUMN HAZE

Feels like autumn
And my life is empty
I don’t regret
Nothing’s to be changed
‘Cause I don’t want to feel this loneliness
Once again I’m in this strange love and waiting

Only the rain knows
How many times I had to shed my skin
To make you stay
No matter how I tried you left and I have died
No matter what I said you just knew it wasn’t true

Off you took with everything you could
I’m here with only pain inside
I’m all the same
And the wind still blows into my face
I wish I could escape to other time
To other place

I’m broken like a dusty glass but free of you at last
I’m on my winding road
Back home
Don’t stand there don’t burn me with your look
Out of everything you took guess what hurts most
You should know

There’s no appeal for love with rules
No cure to heal those inner wounds
No way to stop the one-way train
It feels like autumn’s here again

If your soul’s so pure
If your mind’s so clear
Then why why are you
So fucked up my dear
Track Name: And It Feels
AND IT FEELS

And it feels like my senses have left me once again
Today it’s calm and yesterday was hate
Winter and dark days they’re coming in
And summer’s far away it’s too long to wait

And it feels like my senses
Have left me once again
Once again
Track Name: Cold Eyes And Lies
COLD EYES AND LIES

My girl she’s so far away today
But I don’t have wings to fly to her and say
That she is the one she is the one
And I am once again in this
Strange love and waiting and everything
No I’m not waiting anymore
I’m not singing anymore
I’ll be heading for a shore
Away from here

We’re cold but still searching for a key
Too late there is someone else at the fire
Dreams they don’t give you what you need
They only give what you desire
No I’m not waiting anymore
I’m not singing anymore
I’ll be heading for a shore
Away from here

‘Cause there’s so much I have felt
But only waiting I’ve been kept
Pieces of my lonely life
Are shattered like your window’s glass

It’s so cold outside
We all try to hide
There’s no one aside
Only cold eyes and lies
Only cold eyes and lies
Track Name: Blossom
BLOSSOM

As we're crawling in the dark
And fantasize about
Something that’s too big for us to realize
To us we’re bigger than we seem
We try to understand
We try to comprehend
But we just won’t believe

We always think more than we realise
With oh so good disguise
We function like a no good machine
We destroy and we act surprised

Everyone is dirty
But so we never wash away
Growing like a cancer
Like impenetrable stain
Justice is short
When there’s no place for a shame
There is no place for a shame
We’re stuck in this game forever

For eternity yeah-yeah-yeah
We're stuck in this mess forever

It’s our lives it’s not a cash
It’s our fate we’re playing with
Please tell me we’re not gonna crash
Don’t tell me we already did

Don't spoil yourself
With nothing ever to fear
Do you hear me
Do you hear me
Do you hear me
Track Name: World Made Of Nothing
WORLD MADE OF NOTHING

Oh I guess you know
We’re so incomplete
We’re high on a bough
Swinging our feet

There’s a saw in our hand
And we’re playing with it
We just don’t understand
We’ll fall if we cut too deep

Don’t be afraid
You’re not the only one
Who lost his way in this
World made of nothing

Too many mistakes
Do you know what it takes
To be strong and brave
Someone you don’t hate

But I’m alive
I wish I was alive
I need our love to shine
So I know where I’m going

Don’t be afraid
You’re not the only one
I thought I had it all worked
In this world made of nothing

It’s coming slow
I’m gonna lose my soul
Because I know our face
There’s no god in this place
No cure
Track Name: Shy
S H Y

She wears a distance in her eyes
She always takes you by surprise
You fell into her dark blue eyes
But her soul is a tangled web of lies

Her head is full of hairy tales
As beautiful as fairytales
She tells you once and you believe
You’re such a fool if you think she will leave

She won’t she won’t she won’t

She'll catch those butterflies inside your chest
She'll eat them up without pepper or salt
Then look at you like she needs some rest
Make you believe it’s all your fault

Her head is full of hairy tales
As beautiful as fairytales
She tells you once and you believe
You’re such a fool if you think she will leave

She won’t she won’t

You feel you're on your last lap
The day this thing becomes a trap
She'll say that she will love you all
But she will only play your soul

She's inside of you all the time
She's a mountain too tall to climb
And she’s a river too deep to cross this time
You want to give yourself a perfect gift
But it's too heavy a weight to lift
She showed that a thousand times
You have no choice but to believe

You think this is real
But this is not real
Track Name: Perhaps Someday
PERHAPS SOMEDAY

And we’re down to this once again, once again
I seize to exist any time or day like today
Sometimes it feels, like I’ve become someone I used to hate
Standing aside and going blind seems like the only way
I don’t want to be in this low and cheatful game
Give me one good point to even want to wanna stay

If only I knew what’s true
I would rebuild myself so new
I would be proud
I would be strong
And never had things to go wrong

On a cloudy day sun seems so far away
Counting loud the things I should’ve done or should’ve said
Sitting in dark, imagining where I should be now
Any strange (god damned) place seems better than where I am now

If only I knew what’s true
I would rebuild myself so new
I would be proud
I would be strong
And never had things to go wrong

There’s so much I’ve broken down
There’s so much I’ve wasted away
So what if I have won this fight
Nothing’s earned to this day

And to this very day I don’t know if I should go or stay
Perhaps someday I’ll hear the truth in the words you say
Maybe not today, maybe not today, oh well
Track Name: Aura
AURA

You’re burning like a forest fire
I can see through clouds it’s gonna rain
I saw you walk in without a tire
Your aura soaked in pain

Standing tall, ready to fall into oblivion

God can’t you see her pain?
Can’t you feel?
God, can’t you heal her pain?

She’s standing tall, but tired of all,
waiting, striving for oblivion
Track Name: Just Like Before
JUST LIKE BEFORE

I see a train passing by
And I ask myself what if I
Wasn’t afraid, afraid to try
To take a ride

Into unknown on my own
Away I go, away I go

Into unknown on my own
Away I go just like before
I feel so much more
Today I’m so much more

Now I’m prepared, made up my mind
I’m gonna go on this train tonight
Those empty years I spent in vain
I won’t repeat them, never again

Into unknown on my own
Away I go, away I go

Into unknown on my own
Away I go just like before
I feel so much more
Today I’m so much more

Come take a ride along with me
Let’s go and be where we want to be
There’s no tomorrow and no past
Today we’re free, we’re free at last
Into unknown on our own
Away we go just like before
I feel so much more
Today I’m so much more
Track Name: Chasing Shadows Again
CHASING SHADOWS AGAIN

I thought that it's easy to walk away
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding
I thought without wound there's no pain

I'm ok I'm ok
I'm breathing I'm breathing what's left of air
I'm floating so high if I move I'll fall and break

I've got no reason but only treason
I can't be decent I've got no reason today
To wake up my heart, to open my soul

I thought I had a purpose lying ahead
But now it seems the purpose is the thing that I'd left

We used to be oh so naive
We used to see it ahead of time
But now
What can you see?
What can you see now?

We're chasing shadows
Chasing shadows again
On a lost highway without an end

I thought I had a purpose lying ahead
But now it seems the purpose is the thing that I'd left
I used to live without remorse
I used to navigate without course
I thought I'd really find someone
But seems that someone had slammed the door
Track Name: WHEN SHE CLOSED HER EYES (THE WORLD DISAPPEARED)
WHEN SHE CLOSED HER EYES
(THE WORLD DISAPPEARED)

When she closed her eyes
It seemed the Moon seized to shine
The world turned on its side
And started its slow decline

And the stars, they saw
And laughed so hard
They’re too far away
They are just too far

We don’t live as long
As we’d like to live
To show our children love
And how the world should be

I’ll be leaving soon
Haven’t left a thing
That could heal the world
That would change something

And the stars they see
They laugh so hard
They’re too far away
They are just too far

And the heaven knows
Its anger grows
You won’t see its tears
When it disappears

Heaven knows I’ve tried